New Year's Resolutions

Someone just asked me what my new year's resolutions are. I don't normally think about resolutions anymore particularly because I always seem to fail at achieving them. So, why set myself up for failure year after year after year? Nevertheless, I still think about resolutions at the start of every year. I don't write about them anymore but I guess making New Year's resolutions is sort of a bad habit that is hard to break.

So, what are my resolutions for 2010... [thinking] I guess these would have to be the following:

(1) Stop neglecting my blog - The reason why I set up a blog is... hmmmm... I don't remember. I guess it was sheer vanity - the thought that I have something significant to say and that there are people (mostly close friends and relatives really) who are interested in reading what I have to say. So, I excitedly set up this blog in 2005 (changed the blog name and URL a few times) but somewhere along the way lost my momentum and got caught up in the day to day demands of life and my own doubts about having something significant to say. But, what actually got me inspired again about blogging is when a friend recently pointed out to me that I don't blog anymore. Apparently, she actually enjoys reading my blog.

So, I'm going to blog again. I guess it's also a good way of updating friends and relatives whom I don't see a lot about what I'm going through and what I'm thinking. A cousin of mine whom I haven't seen in ages recently shared that she read my blog and felt connected. I like that - people relating to my own experiences, feeling connected...

(2) Go back to the gym - Okay. I say this every year but when I have to stay in the office until 7 or 8 in the evening, it gets so hard to find the motivation to still go to the gym. I need to get a trainer.

(3) Meditate - I've been trying to be more meditative for years but I haven't so far succeeded in doing this. Every time I sit down to meditate, my mind continues to wander and I keep thinking, I don't have the time to do this, which is certainly not true. I have the time. I just don't make time for it. I have to stop and think and feel and reflect... I'm reading "Buddhist Meditations for People on the Go" now.

I guess these three resolutions are good enough for now, and achievable. I hope I'll be better this year at working on these resolutions.